My emotional roller-coaster ride

It seems to me that when it rains it pours and today is no different. Through an odd series of events I've been informed that my Dad had been hospitalized and he's dying. I've been working on getting plane tickets to get me out of here ASAP that won't cost me thousands of pounds. As always my BT land-line has let me down and I can't reach my mom in California to let her know that I'm coming out. Of course my mom doesn't have internet...why would she, she's never bother to have cable TV.

So to add more to this today is my Hannah's birthday (Happy B-day Sweetheart).

So I saw my son off to the airport yesterday morning knowing that I won't see him again until December, last night spoke with my dad's doctor and she told me that he is gravely ill and that his death is imminent. I've been trying to call my mom repeatedly and I still am unable to get through-- I've about had it with BT!

Meanwhile I feel like a crap parent as nothing is going right for my Hannah's B-day. And I know that God doesn't give you more than you can handle but right now I'm at the edge. Please keep us in your prayers.