Thursday, March 29, 2007
The Radon stuff will be taken care of on Monday. A team of experts will be installing the proper equipment to take care of the problem. Apparently we've set some sort of precedence in the neighborhood. Since our home was discovered to have radon gas issues, all of the new homes built out there will be built with the ventilation system for Radon Gas...nice! I'm proud of myself for getting that one going on :-) I plan on letting the members of our neighborhood home owners association know of there being radon gas discovered in the neighborhood (our home) and that they should get their homes tested if they haven't done so already.
Little things to get taken care of before closing...call the place where we got the flooring and see why they are trying to bill us for $300 more (we've already paid them up front for everything), then there's the issue of the builder trying to double bill us for the extra cable/telephone outlets and some other extra work we had them do, such as sound insulation in the wall that is between a bedroom and the family room and the special outlet for the freezer. Ah, just what I needed, an extra helping of stress this morning, LOL!
The weather here today is nasty! Wind blowing steady at 35 mph, rain being beat into your skin...what's not to like? LOL! And later on we might even get some snow...ugh! Perfect weather for moving into a new house right? It is if you happen to have a 3 car garage at this new house and you can drive right in! Oh yeah, life is good!
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
I've checked out the prices of nice writing paper and it's actually more expensive than what I make for myself and you only get 20 sheets of paper and 10 envelopes. I use Versamark watermark ink when making my watermark stationary. I like to use large stamps, usually something with a floral design but at times I have been known to use other patterns such as seashells, leaves or something more of an architectural nature. The important thing is to choose something that appeals to you. Then ink up your stamp and go to it! I just get into a mode and stamp stamp stamp my paper! Be sure to let it dry thoroughly or if you're a little impatient use a heat tool and heat set the ink. I like to give g my handmade stationary as gifts to dear friends...especially when they are moving. I think that it's a rather thoughtful kind of gift to give; combined with a book of stamps, some envelopes, and a nice pen it makes a very nice gift indeed! It's much nicer (and more personal) than anything you can buy at your local Card Shop that I'm certain of!
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I love to incorporate stamping into my scrapbooking when possible, and www.3scrappyboys.com has combined the best of both worlds (or at least I think so). Looking for some inspiration, check out the gallery there at 3 scrappy boys, tons of great layouts, want a friendly place to hang out? Join the message board!
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
As part of earning a Girl Scout badge or three, we went to the riding stables here on base and road my girlfriend Kim's horse Freckles. What a wonderful time the girls had of it too! I Have to say that my eyes were welling up with happiness. What sums it up best is true Christian generosity, Kim has that running through her veins. She gave a great talk and even showed the kids different saddles, boots and other items needed for riding a horse. There was a farrier there replacing horse shoes on the horses; the girls got to see him in action and he also gave them a short demonstration on how to clean a horses hove. Another girlfriend who knew that I was getting rather stressed out about the new house (the radon evaluation pretty much ruined my day) brought me a Mocha Coffee from Gizzie's (I love that coffee shop). It was a well spent afternoon learning about horses and taking pictures of my girl scouts riding Freckles.
As it is, our service will be cut off here on the 30th and later on that afternoon it will be hooked up at the new house. We shall see how smoothly that goes. Yes that's a little bit of my humorous sarcasm inserted in that statement.
It just seems as if there are all sorts of little things needling me with this last week before we close on the new house. Things the contractor will and will not fix (that downstairs bathroom faucet being one of the issues at hand). He did get a conscious and had all of the locks re-keyed. The guy must be living in a bubble if he thinks that leaving the key to my house out 24/7 on top of the door frame is a "safe" way to do business. Why he doesn't have a contractors key box is beyond me. I loved his reaction when we asked for him to re-key all of the doors with locks, he thought me were nuts then he says "well nothing has ever happened out here before" (meaning houses being broken into). He's just lucky that his lackadaisical business practices haven't gotten him sued by any clients...yet. Our reply to him was "So you mean to tell us that you're willing to cover us on any loss? You're willing to guarantee our safety? You're willing to guarantee our very lives?" he didn't have a come back for that one. He was trying to be a stinker to our agent with being adamant about not replacing those locks...I'm glad that he came to his senses. That guy needs to wake up and smell the coffee and become part of the "real world". My statement to my agent (who by the way is a true champion for her clients) "So Angie, Do you mean to tell me that he never locks his doors? That he really knows everyone that works on these houses that he and his brother have going up in this subdivision? That they do a through background check on each and every person that works or lives out here? Come on! NO one can be that naive or that trusting." My realtor Angie starts laughing as she can totally relate as to what I am talking about. I can see myself being a contractor one day...and actually working with clients and giving them what they want instead of giving them what I think they can live with, LOL! Our realtor Angie is with Century 21 real estate in Rapid City and she has been top notch in everything she's done for us. Trust me, this woman is working for this commission...she's being a mediator with the realtor representing the contractor (who by the way is not doing his clients any special favors). She's really gotten a lot of things worked out for us and has made this entire ordeal go as smoothly as possible. I appreciate all of her hard work, I really do.
I need some more coffee...I can tell that today is going to be a coffee drinking kind of day all day long!
Monday, March 26, 2007
We are dragging our bums on packing the remainder of items left hanging around this house. We know that the end is in sight but it's hard to pack up things that you might need later on in the day. I see us really jumping on it on Wednesday and Thursday.
I ordered the "Easy Track" closet system for our kids' closets on Friday. We've seen these (and maybe you have too) on those wonderful home improvement shows on HGTV, Discovery and a few others. To check it out on line go to www.easytrack.com I ordered the Cherry finish as it (to me) looked more like furniture and gave the closet a rich more detailed look. The Maple finish looked rather yellow when I saw it in person and the white finish did not have the attention to detail as the other 2 color choices (knobs and detailing to the drawers). I'll be sure to post before and after pictures of the closets. I'm looking forward to seeing the transformation from "the construction standard" to the "Wow look what the home owner did".
We are going to be having one heck of a garage sale after we move into our new home. Every single box I pack has got something in it that I would be okay with donating or selling at a garage sale. I think that living in this dinky house has given me the gift of being able to really look at some of the things we own and say "yes we can live without that". One of my most favorite home improvement shows has got to be "Clean Sweep". I love how they just gut a room or two and make the owners of that stuff that has been causing havoc in their personal lives got through it and only keep a small portion of it. Just a note...my home has NEVER looked like any of those homes on that show. But I take the philosophy behind the camera very seriously. There are reasons why we feel so attached to a lot of the needless things we keep around that cause us clutter. Being a military family that moves every so often, it is important to go through our items on a regular basis and purge the weight! We're only allowed so many thousands of pounds for a move (that goes by rank and time in the military) go over that weight allowance and you have to pay the difference. So yes it is in our best interest not to hang on to "stuff" that we really don't need or worse yet things we no longer use. So I've become very practical in my approach as to what stays and what goes. I don't have the kinds of things in my closet that most others have...what's that you wonder? That fat clothes/skinny clothes thing...I got rid of that 3 years ago. Lets face it, for those that are over weight and you're hanging on to clothes that you say you'll wear after you loss those extra pounds...get serious! You are going to want to buy yourself some NEW clothes once you achieve that weight loss goal. And buying yourself new clothes is an added incentive- at least I think so :-) Besides those skinny clothes are going to be out of date.
My note for you today- go out and buy a new color of nail polish and give yourself a manicure!
Friday, March 23, 2007
I've got to get the Zebra Fiches loaded into my kid mobile and delivered to the Youth Center here on Base.
With all that is going on around me, I've been taking pictures every single day of things going on around me. It's amazing what you take for granted, the comfort of a warm bed, being able to take an uninterrupted soak in the tub, music to dance to and the unconditional love you get from a family pet.
Thursday, March 22, 2007
So who's wondering what was going on with me? I'm sure anyone who reads my blog on a regular basis has got to be curious. Here's the scoop... a last minute 8 month deployment to Afghanistan came down and it was between my husband and another man (who by the way is single and has no kids or pets)...this deployment will take place on Monday the 26th...yes that's right this coming Monday. Can you picture the stress levels I was experiencing yesterday? Moving out of one house, into another, getting things set up with phone, cable, sewer gas, electricity. Painting the old house, passing inspection on the old house...meanwhile wrangling all of the stuff for the new house all by myself. I told only 1 person here...my friend Kim. She is a gem! I liked how she told me that she wears her emotions on her sleeve and how she's amazed at how calm I am with all of it. I told her that I've got a lot to get done and I can't freak out when I don't know if this is a 100% sure thing about my DH going on this deployment. I put my trust and faith in the Lord and I know that he will not give me more than I can handle.
So there I was thinking about all of the stuff I have to do, things to get done and so forth. I asked my realtor to push up the closing by one day (we now close on the 29th) and I'm scheduling all of the house stuff for Friday morning...water, sewer, electricity, gas, cable, phone and appliance delivery. The movers are still moving in our furniture on the 2nd and I have a cleaning team coming on the 3rd. I've got it going on and let me tell you I am not stressed any more!
Meanwhile through all of this I'm planning a deployed spouses luncheon to honor those men and women who make the sacrifices here on the home front. I've got a terrific cast of friends who are helping me make this happen. There's my friend Cindy with her designing talents making invitations not to mention that she's also putting together something very nice for everyone- yes it's safe to say that it's scrapbook related :-), there's Molly making her delightful scented candles so I can give each person one, Kim who is going to be cooking up a storm with me as well as Jody and Sherri.
So while all of this is going on around me I asked the Lord for guidance and strength. Do I fell blessed? Why yes I most certainly do. But do not think that for one minute that I do not realize that my husband can be sent away on a deployment at a moments notice.
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
My Scrapbook Nook is packed up and ready to be moved. I just popped my head in there for a pair of scissors and wow it’s bright in there! The yellow paint reflects the light ever so well. This has been my happy little haven for 3½ years. Paper crafts of all kinds have been made in that happy little space that I shared with the furnace and water heater. To think that in 9 days I will be transferring everything from my little space into a new and improved “scrapbook nook”. I feel as if I should have some sort of unveiling ceremony once I have it done up. Oh wait…that’s called having a house warming party and I have to wait until the entire house is ready, LOL!
I started working on my part of the closet here in the bedroom, why do I have so many purses? How many can I really use? With that in mind, I’m going to send my Mom and nice new purse out of my collection. I have a red one that I bought to use on our European family vacation to hell and back taking the scenic route all the way around(yes I’m being sarcastic that vacation still gives us nightmares). Anyway I never did use the purse and there it was on the shelf. So my Mom will get a surprise along with some votive candles I just bought for her. I came across the leather backpack that Lucien bought for me when he was TDY at the American Embassy in Bogota Columbia- I hate to say it but dang it’s ugly! One word comes to mind…garage sale!
Here we go again, another day of packing up our belongings. I’m not sure if I’m ready for it. When I was on my way back from taking the kids to school this morning a wave of nausea washed over me and I haven’t been able to shake it. It was as if someone flipped a switch I was feeling okay to suddenly I’m going to be sick to my stomach. I was in the middle school parking lot and suddenly felt this overwhelmingly urge to vomit. Once I arrived home and got out of my kid mobile, as I walked up the drive way I had to try very hard to not throw up right there. Oh my goodness, it was horrible! I thought Hmmmm okay I better hurry up and eat breakfast. Okay I ate breakfast and I still feel horribly ill. I don’t have a headache; it’s a yucky upset stomach which is making me feel light headed. I feel as if I was on a roller coaster ride on a full stomach- yuck!
I have so much to get done, yet I don’t feel up to it at the moment. I’m going to pack up my part of the clothes closet here in the master bedroom. That’ll be a lot easier than packing up the scrapbook nook. I’m going to tape the drawers closed on the plastic carts in my nook and call it good, oh do I wish that I would have thought of that 2 days ago…that would have saved me much time and undo stress.
I keep telling myself that I need to watch, listen to and read the news more often. That’s one of my things I’m working on for my making 2007 better habits list. I just can’t stand incomplete news and let me be the first to say that I feel that our local news channels and news paper are just chuck full of incomplete news. It’s frustrating to watch a local news program and not get the entire story. I catch myself tuning in later on to see if the late night news cast has more information on the story and nope, it’s just as incomplete as the 5 o’clock news cast. UGH! So I prefer to read my news on line. I check out Reuters, Google News, CNN on line and so forth, I always get the complete story there. But there are times when I’ve had enough of the sensationalism with the news…such as Anna Nicole Smith’s death. I don’t think that President Ronald Reagan or Naturalist Steve Erwin (The Crocodile Hunter) got as much press coverage when they died as Anna Nicole has…and they were famous for actually making a difference in peoples lives in a positive manner. Enough is enough…lets get on with life and move past all of the who-ha with Anna Nicole. Do we really care who fathered her infant daughter? I can tell you that I don’t and you shouldn’t either, LOL!
Monday, March 19, 2007
As I’m scoping out Google news I came across an article about a pet food recall after some pets have died. Here’s the link…go check it out! Eeek! I saw Iam’s on there and almost had a stroke! I’m okay now since we don’t get out kitty that brand of wet cat food, she only eats Iam’s dry cat food, what a relief!
The cleaning team leader finally showed up...only 3½ hours AFTER her appointment with me. To me it's just common courtesy to let your appointments know that you're running late for what ever the reason. If you ask me, common courtesy is something that our society is running a little short on these days. I can only hope that she and her team show up on time to clean our house for our final inspection. Did she apologize for being so late? Nope, not even a hint of an apology was given!
While my husband and I were out and about on Saturday we went to Ashley Home Furnishings. It was built last last year and we've always meant to go in there but just never had gotten around to it. WOW, what a nice store! We set out looking for night stands for our bedroom. We're tired of the decorator tables we've been using for the last 16¾ years. We want to make our master bedroom complete. I've been on the look out for a new bedding set for our bedroom. I'm so sick of this red, white and blue Americana themed quilt and pillow shams that I could just puke! There's nothing wrong with it, it's just that I'm very tired of it. It was meant to go in our guest bedroom but it went into our bedroom. Anyway while at Ashley we found several pieces of furniture to our liking and low and behold...they also sell bedding sets. There were many beautiful and elegant bedding sets on display and I couldn't believe they were for sale! As I'm looking at the wonderful displays of furniture throughout this store I came across a bedding set that caught my eye...it was what I was looking for in color and in style. Beautiful cabbage roses in shades of green, burgundy, taupe and topaz. Besides the cabbages roses on the comforter, there's a striped bed skirt, striped European style 26 inch square pillow shams, regular pillow shams with paisley and foofy tasseled fringe, decorator pillows with the paisley and tasseled fringe and a very fancy neck roll pillow with more of the elegant fringe and fabrics. I am in LOVE with this bedding set! It is just what I was wanting for our bedroom. Because it was the last one I was able to get a deal on it...oh yeah I think that I got a good price on this set, you should see the detailing the braided cording trim, the tasseled fringe the quality of fabrics used in the construction of this set.
Meanwhile there's my wonderful husband looking at furniture...he found a coffee table and end tables that he really liked, ones that would look great with our leather sofa and love seat. Okay then to make me love him even more, he wanted me to try out a recliner that he liked, then he tells me that this is what he wants for our bedroom. I look at him and he proceeds to tell me that he wants to create a little reading nook in our room. Where we could curl up with a book and just relax, we can put our Ott lamp in there next to the recliner. Oh my gosh the chair was perfect! We made note of these furniture pieces and we plan to come back to purchase them after we move into the house, we bought the bedding set and I've been floating on cloud 9 all weekend long! I can see our Master Bedroom coming together and becoming the restful haven I've wanted it to be for so long.
About the new house....On Saturday the wood flooring was installed and yesterday the carpet was going in. I'm going to check it out later on today.
Currently I'm waiting for the cleaning team to give me an estimate on how much it's going to cost to have them do the deep cleaning required by base housing. I prefer to pay a cleaning team versus Lucien and I doing it. This sounds stupid but it's true...if you employ a cleaning teams they will get passed 100% of the time versus if we do it chances are that they (base housing) will ride us harder than the cleaning team. So for a few dollars I'd much rather have the professionals do the work. These ladies know what they're doing, they know what kinds of things the hosing office is looking for to pass inspection.
Okay now I'm off to get some more laundry done, vacuum and to do what? Yes pack up more boxes!
Saturday, March 17, 2007
It's Saturday, and Lucien and I have been out running around. First we went to Menard's, where I found a beautiful granite sink that I want to get for our kitchen, some cabinets that I want to get for the laundry and a counter top (for folding laundry). We went to Lowe's where we bought packing boxes and a few other things we need here and at the new house. After that it was a trip over to Ashely Home Furnishings...what a nice store that was! We spent a couple of hours in there and ended up buying a a complete bedding set of "our" bedroom. It's lovely, it's got rich hues of green burgundy and gold. I adore big cabbage roses, and it's got stripes too. The pillow shams and the decorator pillows are so beautiful. I'm finally getting our bedroom looking the way I want it to look...elegant, romantic and comfortable. This Americana stuff is outta here! This stuff is up for sale after we move!
Andrew likes his new bedroom stuff, shades of blue, brown and tan make it very masculine looking.
Okay while at Ashley we found other furnishings that we really liked, new coffee table and end tables for our living room, and a recliner to put in our bedroom. No luck on finding end tables for our bedroom- but I'm going to shop Moose-head Furniture on line and see what I can find. If worse comes to worse I'll have them ship it to us from Maine. Our house is going to be so warm and inviting....I can hardly wait to get it decorated and ready to show to our friends.
Thursday, March 15, 2007
My husband and I have joined the crowd and have bought our eldest child a cell phone. With Andrew driving soon, we figured that it is to our advantage for him to have one. I used to not think that having a cell phone was necessary item, but you know what...we've really come to depend upon having one with us. I do not want our children driving anywhere out here without one with them! This is a big area and by them having a cell phone on their person- well it gives me peace of mind and I think that it does for them too.
We're still packing boxes here, I'm getting down to what the "what do we reeeeeally need to keep out and what can go in a box right now" stage. Yesterday I went to get a particular bowl from the cupboard and guess what....I realized that I had already packed it. I started to laugh because it was pretty funny. I can see us all doing that with various things in the house. Now I have almost all of my rubber stamps in clear shoe boxes. That is the way that I plan to store them in my new and improved Scrapbook Nook at the end of the month. I haven't thought about packing the rest of my scrapbook nook though. I know that once I start I won't be able to stop. Then I'll be without supplies for a couple of weeks. I just want to make an easy transition to our new space. And lets face it, I've got quite a bit stuffed into that little space- more than you can imagine. I'm going to pop the wheels onto all of those carts to make it easier to move around in the next room. I have so many ideas going through my head right now on colors to paint that room. Currently it's a pale yellow with a bright sunny yellow glaze overcoat. But I want to change that in the next house. I want to use more muted colors throughout the house. So today I'll have to bring over my color swatches to see what they will look like in the natural light of that room...for that matter, in all of the rooms.
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
I'm going to have some tea and biscuits (the British version of Cookies) to celebrate!
One day, when I was a freshman in high school, I saw a kid from my class was walking home from school.His name was Kyle.It looked like he was
carrying all of his books.I thought to myself, "Why would anyone bring home all his books on a Friday? He must really be a nerd."I had quite a weekend planned (parties and a football game with my friends tomorrow afternoon), so I shrugged my shoulders and went on.As I was walking, I saw a bunch of kids running toward him. They ran at him, knocking all his books out of his arms and tripping him so he landed in the dirt.His glasses went flying, and I saw them land in the grass about ten feet from him.He looked up and I saw this terrible sadness in his eyes My heart went out to him. So, I jogged over to him as he crawled around looking for his glasses, and I saw a tear in his eye.As I handed him his glasses, I said, "Those guys are jerks.
" They really should get lives." He looked at me and said, "Hey thanks!"There was a big smile on his face.It was one of those smiles that showed real gratitude. I helped him pick up his books, and asked him where he lived.As it turned out, he lived near me, so I asked him why I had never seen him before.He said he had gone to private school before now.I would have never hung out with a private school kid before.We talked all the way home, and I carried some of his books.He turned out to be a pretty cool kid.I asked him if he wanted to play a little football
with my friendsHe said yes.We hung out all weekend and the more I got to know Kyle, the more I liked him, and my friends thought the same of him.Monday morning came, and there was Kyle with the huge stack of books again.I stopped him and said, "Boy, you are gonna really build some serious muscles with this pile of books everyday! " He just laughed and handed me half the books.Over the next four years, Kyle and I became best friends.. When we were seniors we began to think about college.Kyle decided on Georgetown and I was going to Duke. I knew that we would always be friends, that the miles would never
be a problem.He was going to be a doctor and I was going for business on a football scholarship. Kyle was valedictorian of our class.I teased him all the time about being a nerd.He had to prepare a speech for graduation.I was so glad it wasn't me having to get up there and speakGraduation day, I saw Kyle.He looked great.He was one of those guys that really found himself during high school.He filled out and actually looked good in glasses.He had more dates than I had and all the girls loved him. Boy, sometimes I was jealous!Today was one of those days.I could see that he was nervous about his speech.So, I smacked him on the back and said, "Hey, big guy, you'll be great!"He looked at me with one of those looks (the really grateful one) and smiled." Thanks," he said. As he started his speech, he cleared his throat, and began"Graduation is a time to thank those who helped you make it through those tough years. Your parents, your teachers, your siblings, maybe a coach...but mostly your friends...I am here to tell all of you that being a friend to someone is the best gift you can give them.I am going to tell you a story." I just looked at my friend with disbelief as he told the
story of the first day we met.He had planned to kill himself over the weekend.He talked of how he had cleaned out his locker so his Mom wouldn't have to do it later and was carrying his stuff home. He looked hard at me and gave me a little smile."Thankfully, I was saved.My friend saved me from doing the unspeakable."I heard the gasp go through the crowd as this handsome, popular boy told us all about his weakest moment. I saw his Mom and dad looking at me and smiling that same grateful smile.Not until that moment did I realize it's depth.Never underestimate the power of your actions.With one small gesture you can change a person's life. For better or for worse.God puts us all in each others lives to impact one another in some way.Look for God in others.
Okay so I get this phone call from Jody, our OSC Parliamentarian asking me if I'd be interested in being the new OSC Program Director fr the upcoming board year. That she had heard through the grapevine that I might be interested. That others have said that I'd be very good in this board position. I thought about it and told her that I'd have to think about it. So I thought about it...and thought and thought some more. Angela our current program directer has done an outstanding job these past 2 years. She (Angela) said that she's not interested in doing it a 3rd time though...I think that her family may be moving this year. SO after mulling it over, I agreed to do it....So here I am the new OSC programs Director. I better get on it and figure out what we're going to be doing this next board year!
So am I excited about it? Yes of course I am! I've got events to plan, meals to plan, table settings and entertainment to schedule. This is going to be a total BLAST!
Someone from the housing office is coming by today to give us an initial evaluation inspection. I'm sure that they've seen worse looking places than ours. Our house is clean, it's just that boxes are everywhere and that there's a mountain of "stuff" piled on the tables that needs to go into a box.
I cringe at the thought of packing up my scrapbook nook- oh my gosh it's going to be a lot of boxes! I bought some more of those plastic shoe boxes so I could box up the rest of my rubber stamps. Oh do I ever have a lot of rubber stamps! I didn't think that it was that many, but once I started boxing them up...oh yeah it's a lot of rubber stamps. And to think that I know people that have double and even triple the amount of stamps that I own...it's mind boggling! Where do you begin to store them all? I mean really??? So here I am looking at this and I'm shaking my head. At times I feel very overwhelmed with the entire process and at others I'm at peace with it. I just have to remember that this is only for a couple more weeks and then we'll be in our new beautiful home.
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
But you know what?...Real friends can talk to one another about silly petty things without them thinking you're a total idiot, LOL! I'm finding this to be true with Cindy, she's a gem! And lucky for me she's going to be a neighbor too!
My friend Susan and her husband David are moving back to the States this summer (I can't begin to tell you how happy this makes me). David is in the Air Force and will be going back to re-qual in LA while Susan and their boys are in ND. I've invited them to visit us during the summer, I can hardly wait! I've also invited them for Thanksgiving. I can not believe how close we'll be, only 1 state away! That's so much better than the entire USA and the Atlantic Ocean, LOL! Susan and her husband are dealing with issues pertaining to the Death of David's father, the will his father left and the step mother trying to sell off the property that is being held in trust for David and his siblings. And of course their stress levels are off the charts because they are over seas. Not being able to deal with something like this in person has got to be rough. When I look at what they are dealing with it makes my issues about towel bars, sink faucets and lighting fixtures so seriously petty.
I received an e-mail from my friend René- she read my blog entry about suicides and wrote me a touching letter (René- if you're reading today you brought tears to my eyes). How a parent deals with the suicide of their child...the grief has got to be immense. From what I remember my Mom dealing with after the death of her husband/my father- it was sadness on the most profound level. She tried to hide it from me, but I know that she cried for days on end, but at the same time she made sure that she reassured us that SHE was going no where. My mom has been my biggest inspiration in life. The things she has seen and dealt with through the years...has helped to make her the tough old German lady that she is today. When dealing with the suicide of a family member you feel as if you had failed the person, when in fact they never let you in. I think that if my mother had known about my fathers deep seeded depression that she would have sought help for him. But this was in the mid 1960's, seeing a psychiatrist back then had a stigma attached to it (only crazy people saw shrinks). Nowadays it's okay, seeking help from a psychologist or psychiatrist for insight on how to deal with a personal matter for yourself (or a loved one) is widely accepted. I'm sure that the parents of the young man who recently committed suicide probably feel as if they had let down their son, that they too had failed him. But being human...we can't see into the hearts and minds of others. We have to go on what they tell us and believe it to be true. My other thing to say about this (yes-more of Sandie's words of wisdom here, bear with me) this will probably sound cliché but it's meaning holds true..."Time heals all wounds, great and small".
Monday, March 12, 2007
I went to mail off some packages this morning. I think that surprising 3 people with goodies in the mail is a good way to get away from having such a bad start this morning.
Okay so after the post office I went by my soon to be home- but alas I was only to find some fleeting joy and some more of me being annoyed. When I had the contract drawn up one of the things I was adamant on was having the lower portion of the house being done in the "same quality" as the upper portion of the house. Alas I found super cheap lighting fixtures (like you would expect to see in a college dorm) and a cheap bathroom faucet. The ones upstairs are lovely and very fancy. It's important to me that we keep the same quality throughout the house since this is not our forever home and we will be selling it in 3 to 3½ years. It's having that attention to details that makes a home sell quicker and they also help to seal the deal so to speak. Granted we did not build this home from scratch and pick out every last item (carpet, hardwood flooring, tile flooring and light fixture) like our last 2 houses. This house was partially finished, the upstairs was 100% done, beautiful top quality light fixtures, beautiful cabinets in the kitchen and bathrooms, and lovely faucets in both the guest and master bathrooms. You can only imagine my surprise when I saw cheap $5 light fixtures and a faucet that was no where near the quality of the ones that were in the upstairs bathrooms. I'm just a bit disappointed in this lack of attention to detail with this contractor. They made a beautiful home...upstairs and I want the same attention to detail and quality in the down stairs level of this home. We are paying top dollar to get the downstairs portion of this house finished, and to say the least it is drawn out in our contract as to having the downstairs done in the same manner of quality as the upstairs.
I need to take some headache medicine...my head hurts with all of this stuff!
My views on suicide- there is nothing I mean NOTHING in this world that is worth you killing yourself over, do you hear me NOTHING!!! Killing yourself is a selfish ignorant act that in the end hurts so many people but at the same time it leaves you out of the picture for taking any responsibility for what you did. It makes people think that they didn't do enough, they they were somehow to blame. But the truth of the matter is, the only loser is the one taking their own life.
I had a girlfriend named Jennifer...she was always threatening to commit suicide. It drove me crazy! I would get so mad at her every time she brought this up. When did she act stupid like this? Every time she had a boyfriend and every time she and her boyfriend would fight or when a boyfriend would break up with her. Come on! Boyfriends come and go and none of them are worth killing yourself over. I got married and moved from the west coast to the east coast (got to love the military) and Jennifer and I lost touch over the years. I have no idea what happened to her after her failed marriage. I sometimes think about her and wonder if she ever really would have killed herself over a failed relationship.
I remember finding out about an ex-boyfriend that had committed suicide. He was handsome, had everything that he could ever want but was also troubled at the same time. He killed himself a few years after we had broken up. I had found out through some mutual friends that he had gotten into drugs like cocaine and marijuana and was steroids to help him get pumped up (he was seriously into bodybuilding). In my eyes, this man led a very privileged life, had a wonderful family that adored him and he threw it all way.
My 3rd story of suicide is closer to home. I was 5½ years old when I had found my father dead in the bathroom in our small apartment. He had shot himself in the head. That's right, I was right outside the door when he did it, the first one on the scene. Was there a suicide note? Not to my knowledge. You see, I was a very bright child, I could read books (and not the look look books that common 4 years old read at the time) and write by age 4- I was what they called a "bright child" now days they would called it "gifted". At age 5, I taught my mother to read and write English. I remember having to write out the checks to pay for the rent and electricity because she couldn't do it. I look at my father as deadbeat who couldn't couldn't face life. He found it much easier to kill himself than to confront life and take situations head on. I'm 44 years old and I have never forgiven him for killing himself...killing himself while I was right outside the door. how can you do that to your own child?
So any time I hear of people like Britney Spears and other celebrities such as actors of comedians attempting to commit suicide I wonder if it's for attention. That is a desperate cry for help. It's heart breaking when you learn of an actors death, but when you learn that they took their own life? It makes me stop and think..."What in the world is so bad that you had to kill yourself over? I mean really?"
So anytime anyone around goes on and on about killing themselves it makes me angry, very very angry! So now you all see a little glimpse into what makes me who I am.
Saturday, March 10, 2007
I got to play with my new little picture printer- I'm in love! Not only is it fast, it's quiet! The pictures are clear and crisp, it's awesome!
Last night I got creative with food...I tried another new dish and oh my gosh it is out of this world YUMMY! I am going to make this for the deployed spouses luncheon that I'm hosting in May. I've rounded up some friends from Mission Support who are willing to assist me in hosting this event in my home. Of course I'll be making a couple of cheesecakes for dessert and these delightful stuffed tomatoes! The ladies who are assisting me will be making dishes as well. We'll be having about 12 ladies for lunch, we'll also be sure to invite the commander for Mission Support Group- she would love to have lunch with all of us, I'm sure of it! I look forward to letting these ladies know that they are not forgotten, that they are appreciated for who they are and the sacrifices that they are enduring. I plan on hosting after luncheon during the summer months...when it can be held outside...because there will be up towards 30 kids when school is out and 30 kids in one persons home...I don't even want to go there, LOL! I'd make that one a pot luck where everyone brings a dish to share :-)
I've got my husband and son boxing up things in the boys room- woohoo! A girl friend just dropped some boxes off at out house (big ones too). This is a tremendous help! She said that she has even MORE boxes to drop off here tomorrow...I welcome it with open arms, or should I say with an open garage door? LOL!
Okay now for me to get busy with writing up some journaling for my picture a day year of my life project. I've got the pictures printed up...just got to finish up the other part.
Friday, March 09, 2007
SO I have no font choice today...how strange. I prefer to use Century Gothic or Verdana but today alas there is no window in which to choose a font from.
I've been keeping busy by plugging away at packing boxes. I've gone and done the kitchen and then the guest bath, the mast bath and now I'm working on putting away videos tapes, cd's and books. I can not believe how many boxes of stuff came out of mt little pie cabinet- wow! I've amazed myself at how much that thing can hold. If this is going to be any indication of how this is going to be around here...this house is going to be stuffed to the gills with boxes! Well it's back to the salt mines for me and I've got more packing to get done!
Thursday, March 08, 2007
1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Life is too short for long pity parties. Get busy living, or get busy dying.
17. You can get through anything if you stay put in today.
18. A writer writes. If you want to be a writer, write.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: "In five years, will this matter?"
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
35. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood. Make it memorable.
38. Read the Psalms. They cover every human emotion.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
41. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
42. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
43. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
44. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
45. The best is yet to come.
46. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
47. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
48. If you don't ask, you don't get.
50. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
The concrete slab still needs to be patched so the vinyl flooring can be installed in the kids bathroom and laundry room. There's something else that has me annoyed crabby...the cabinet guy isn't installing the bathroom cabinet until the flooring people put down the vinyl flooring in the bathroom...mean while back on the ranch the plumber can not come in and do HIS job of putting in the sink and toilet and hooking up the water because the cabinet guy wants to make it easy for the flooring people. Who ever heard of the cabinets going on top of the vinyl flooring? What if the next owners hate the flooring I picked out and want to put in tile flooring? What then? Do they rip out the cabinet and pull out the vinyl that's underneath of it? I mean really...do they? When you start to think about it, it's all so stupid. I say install the cabinet so the plumber can come in and get his job done. The flooring isn't here yet and won't be installed until the 16th and the rest of it on the 19th. That's a long time to be waiting for someone else to get their job done and you're hanging around waiting like a vulture. for them to be done.
I managed to hire a moving company today. It's $145 an hour for 4 men and a truck...not bad considering the other alternative....move it all ourselves. I figure that we'll have everything boxed up and most of it outta here by the time April 2nd rolls around. We'll have the beds taken apart and ready to be loaded onto the truck. Heck I could have things out in the lawn ready for them to load it on the truck if that will help to speed things along!
Well it's almost time for me to entertain some young ladies this afternoon with a cooking with chocolate lesson. We're making baby (as in small) Chocolate Lava Cakes. A good friend of mine who home-schools her 6 children (she is a braver woman that I am) is sending a couple of her daughters down to spend a few hours with myself and my daughter. This is going to be oodles of fun! I went out and bought some new ramekins just for this! I look forward to my new house...it has a larger kitchen and we won't have to mix everything on the kitchen table, we could do it on the counter top where it should be done!
Here I sit typing and I'm thinking about what I have going on for the day. I've got 1001 different things bubbling through my head when it comes to decorating the new house. What colors am I going to paint, what fabrics will I use when I make the new window treatments? I've got a few ideas on the kinds of rods I'd like to buy for in the kitchen and eat in area when the kitchen table and chairs will go. I've got to swing by the house to make sure that the door to my Scrapbook Nook swings the right way...hey it's the little things that matter here, LOL! I've got an OSC board meeting to attend at 9:30 am that I'm hoping to leave early from. Then there's those six- 6 ounce ramekins that I have to buy today for baking chocolate lava cakes this afternoon with my daughter and her friend Lucy. I need to call more moving companies and get more rates...and of course pack more boxes today. Just another day in my life kind of thing- for March, LOL!
Oh that reminds me...I need to print some more journaling out for my page a day, send off some photo's to be printed at Walgreen's for OSC and get some more laundry done!
I've been up since just after 3 am and I have a feeling that I'll be in much need of a nap later on this afternoon before the baking session with the girls.
Yup, this is going to be one of those go-go-go kind of days, then once I sit down to catch my breath I'll fall asleep!
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
I've not heard back from Allied moving company- she said she'd call back yesterday with our estimate and she didn't. I'm going to call all of the other ones in the phone book and get quotes from them as well.
I popped in to see what's going on with my house and it's got it's first coat of paint! I can see that it will need at least one more coat of paint downstairs. It looks so good though- every room looks huge! The amount of natural sunlight that is streaming through the windows into my scrapbook nook is wonderful! It's going to be such a positive and energetic place to work and create scrapbook layouts! The family room is going to be such a warm and comfortable place for our family to hang out in. And the best part is that the TV set won't be on top of us!
My husband is looking forward to the roomy garage...it's a 3 car garage with plenty of storage space! There's even room (and a 220 outlet) for me to get a stand up freezer!
While downtown this afternoon I'll give a change of address to our Orthodontist and the Dentist offices. Well I better get out of my jammies and make use of the boxes I got from my pal Cindy yesterday. I hate to do it, but I'm going to pack up some of my bake-ware and my pasta machine and it's accessories. I just don't see me baking any cakes or making home made pasta for the rest of the month.
Monday, March 05, 2007
A dear friend shared happiness with me today and I was moved beyond words. It's one of those things that moves in circles...before you know it everyone has some happiness! My hope for you is to share something happy with a friend...it'll make you feel warm and for the lack of a better word happy all over! Try it and see! As I go to bed tonight I'm happier than words can say because I know that through my own random acts of kindness I have made others happy :-)
Today my waiting around is for the sales rep from the moving company. I told them to make the appointment for 9am, the office guy said that she has an appointment before ours and could be a little early or a little late depending upon her first client.
Saturday, March 03, 2007
As I sit here typing this I know that my days in this tiny house are coming to and end. I'm excited about it and can't wait for signing on the dotted line to take possession of our new home!
Friday, March 02, 2007
I finished up my pages from yesterday and I have them in page protectors. Now for me to get with it and figure out which printer to buy. I'm not looking for one to print pictures I'm looking for one that can handle printing on cardstock and vellum.
Thursday, March 01, 2007
Now for me to get back to the kitchen and finish making the quiche for lunch.